Group Gatherings/Party's

In recent years people who I knew iv noticed plan gatherings or special events to meet up with fellow ex Wargrave/Lakeside classmates & even with some who I am still in contact with if they plan something iv never been invited along to the event. Being truthful whenever I find out I just feel left out & unwanted as things havent been going positively for me over the years alongside last year with the loss of two family members inside the space of two months.

One person who I knew that still resides in Southport who has the IG page "SmallTownAutisticWoman" is known to plan such events on regular occasions but she's never invited me along to stuff she plans, Infact I think she even had one planned for Halloween a while back. The last time I even saw her was in Feb 2020 when a fellow classmate that I still speak to got married in Ormskirk, since then iv not seen or spoken with her since. She even said that her loyalties will always lie with another person who she's friends with rather than even give me the thought of day for stuff they planned. Really with those two they are basically like non related sisters rather than friends. After having been invited to Claire's flat a few years back for a christmas gathering she planned plus another one before, I did hope to repay that favour or debt and plan something myself if I got a place of my own. With my late nans house although the seperate apartments idea fell through owing to the issue of costs as the motor trade work is now dead, it was decided to redecorate a set of rooms to use as a living space plus a redone bedroom. Hearing this I began to get my hopes up as it would mean I could've invited a few people round for a small gathering, my father had actually promised me these converted rooms but then he changed his plans and gave them to my middle brother (all because he had uni money to blow). Having this happen was really a kick in the teeth for me as since then iv had to put up with living in the family home, however things might be changing very soon. As a result that plan of moving into Nans went out of the window entirely and with where I am presently it would prove too difficult to plan something as id need to get rid of parents and my youngest brother for the day or night & the other issue is iv got two dogs at home so id need to either keep them in a seperate room away from everyone OR have to let them roam the house but pray they dont cause issues (the big issue now is that the oldest one of the duo has now lost her eyesight & I dont think she has long left and this very likely will be her last summer). The only other option would've been my late grandmother's house in town, but with that place it's recently been sold rather than rented out OR allow either myself or my other sibling live in it. Even if I paid rent. Greenways in Hesketh Bank is also a no go because although it's not been sold it's presently been rented out and eventually my uncle might be aquiring the place.

I dont know how some of the others like Sarah have managed to get a place of her own as I dont think she's in employment at present but has managed to get a flat of her own so can plan stuff out. I've had no luck when it comes to messaging her through either IG or Facebook as whenever iv tried messaging her through either one iv never recieved a response, it was the same problem with texting so all attempts iv abandoned now.

Anyway getting back on topic I would love to be able in planning something like a gathering at a place of my own but it's just clearly not gonna be possible anytime soon & the hopes of attending anything planned by the others is basically at 0% as the only ones who plan gatherings are ones I haven't interacted with for god knows how many years and lost contact with OR are ones who strongly hate me, the chap who runs"JM_Puppets" being one such example. To make matters even worse is very recently someone who I do still speak with has recently moved back to Bangor in North Wales so officially wargrave students wise the only one I now see is Callum but he lives in Manchester. I Really do wanna be involved with others again but it's their decisions on who attends their events, not mine so iv gotta accept their decisions and deal with it sadly.

Stay tuned for future posts

Mr Moyle